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[-Thursday 27th-] |
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Chantel Kreviazuk-feels like home to me |
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woahhhh i have not updated this thing in forever its crazy
from my last entry i guess alot has changed. so ive fucked up pretty bad but i guess its for the best and the worst cuz its helped me relize somethings that i probably never would have relized on my own. it just sucks that i had to hurt someone who meant alot to me in order to relize it. but i guess the most important lessons really do come with the most pain. its gunna be real hard and im gunna miss him but i know ill be ok cuz if there is one thing ive learned growing up is that life goes on . i dont know im still extremely confused i dont know what the hell is going on and i really dont think that will ever change becasue thats just how ive always been but i think im ok with that i like the way i am for the most part im content with myself i have some things i need to work on but so does everyone else.
i love my friends all of them even the ones i dont see very often i dont know ive noticed that they really pull through for me when i need them. ive been spending a lot of time with the one and only fuckin kaitlyn osmundsen aka oz and she is amazingggggg ive always known it but idk today/tonight i just really noticed it. i really want to spend more time with sam soder cuz i dont see her enough and its always better when shes around i miss sarah harris my women me and rachel work together at carvel now so im really excited about that i miss mathew gorrel we were real close for a while and now were not and thats gay i dont see charles enough as i want to or ann or chelsea and mallorieee. alissa is just the shit. pat kenney has dissapeard from my life and thats not cool and i got really close with berger april and mary and kristen and i just dont understand how i ever lived with out them.oh yeah and amazingly kaitlyn merz has came back into my life and its awsome =) i dont know recently my weekends have been so good and i cant wait till summer o wow im really excited about prom/prom weekend hmmmm even though i cant share it with the one person i really wanted to but it will still be great oh wow and then after summer everyones going to collegee wow i feel like everything is just happening so fast its crazyyyy im sad but mostly excited and scared but more excited wow im really excited i usually hate change but im really excited to like be out there like living even though im scared of growing up ive really been looking forward to it my entire life i mean i dont want to be old i just want to like stay in my mid twenties early 30's forever woahhh wow i really got a head of myself haa its all good though idk im just in one of those moods hmmm well im gunna go watch road to peridition cuz charles let me borrow it cuz hes the shittttt ok welll nightttttt <3333
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[-Tuesday 19th-] |
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hmmm so im babysitting and im watching Hercules the movie with Jack and Joey and im really bored because ive seen it like 4 times before soo hmm i was thinking of what i could go to amuse myself since i just found out that im stuck babysitting till at least 8 and i decided hey i havent updated my live journal in like forever so here i am....ummm i dont really get the point of having one of these things because absolutly no one reads them...seriously those of you who do write in them either write a log entry about your day and who the hell cares about that unless you are there friend in which case you most likely know what they did becasue you were problably with them or heard about it or your entry consists of a some song lyrics that describes how your feeling at the time but no one even gets the signifigance of it becasue they arent friends with you they just read your live journal when they are bored....not that its a bad thing i do it and it causes me some amusement for abouut 30 seconds but if your entry is over a paragraph long i dont even bother becasue when im all done reading it i really dont give a shit about anything you just wrote. another thing i hate is myspace...myspace is seriousoly i think one of the stupidest things every created i mean what is the point. i hate hate hate my space sluts who take slutty pictures of them selves and meet people on line and comment on peoples who they think is hott or asks people to be there friend when they have never before in there like met them or even plan on meeting them what is the thrill of telling someone you dont know that you think they are hott? and wanna meet them even though you know they read your comment and laugh at the fact that you are trying to flirt with them over myspaceeee i mean cmonnnnn you fuckin loserrr even though i have a myspace but i am friend with people i am friends with and i dont try to pick up guys off of it. anywayyy summer fuckin sux the whole end of the school year i built up this summer in my head and made my self so excited becasue i thought it was goin to be amazing. i was goin to chill with my friends be tan and goin down the shore like everyday i was goin to have a fuckin hott boyfriend with a nice car and hott body ha and i was goin to fuckin get laid there was goin to be absolutly no drama and i was goin to be high and drunk like every night haaa well this summmer is absolultly nothin like i imagained most of my nights consist of sitting at my friends house talkin about how we wish we were doin something fun or drunk it fuckin sux suprisingly the most fun i think i had this whole summer was sitting behinnd the high school with sarah just talking about everything serious shit and gay shit of course i went home like 2 hours late and got in a shit load of trouble but it didnt matter becsaue it was fun hmmm the night before that was actually really fun too though driving around with rachel quinn and charles fuckin freakin out over everything haha and the diner was fuckin fun but that was like the first night that was fun the whole summer i hate drama and i wish that all my friends who used to be friends would just fuckin stop being so gay and start being friends again becasue you all know that you want to and it would make this summer so much better and easier anywayyy oz gets her licence tomorrow and happily i dont have work tomorrow becasue i have it today and it kind of worked out for the best and i get my licence in 14 days exactly 2 weeks =) but my fuckiin car is broken as of right now i got the beees out so thats a fuckin plus but now i need a new battery and "a cable is loose" or what ever fuckin bob said haaa bob...ew well i have to get that shit fixed so thats money and then yesterday my grandma pulls this shit that shes not giving me the car becasue shes giving it to my aunt until she gets a new car i love my aunt liz my seriosly noo bitchhh anywayyy so next year im gunna be a big bad senior woo and next year is gunna be the shit even though it probly wont be becasue i say that about every year and its always the same but well see hmmm so i think im pretty much finished with this cuz i have to go tend to joey and jack cuz there beating the shit outta eachother so yeah o yeah and if anyone wants to teach me to parallel park with in the next 2 weeks it would be greatly apreciated so get back to me or if you want to go down the shore that would be hott too ok byeee
ps Anthony if you read this whole thing wow i love youu haaa
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[-Monday 11th-] |
X - applies to you fully/ v - applies to you partially
(x) smoked a cigarette
(x) smoked a cigar
(x) smoked anything else
(x) made out with a member of the same sex
() crashed a friend's car
() stolen a car
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
(x) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out of my parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
() been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
() gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(v) skipped school
() slept with a co-worker
(v) seen someone die
() had a crush on one of your MYSPACE friends
() been to Canada
(x) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
() thrown up in a bar
(x) purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) eaten Sushi
(x) been snowboarding
() met someone in person from MYSPACE
(v) been moshing at a concert
(v) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
(x) watched the sun set
() felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) been tickled
() been robbed
() robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
(x) pet a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(v) run a red light/stop sign
() been suspended from school
(x) had detention
(x) been in a car accident
(x) Felt like an outcast
() eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
(v) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
()been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
() been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
() played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
() laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) kissed in the rain
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
() been kissed under a mistletoe
(v) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(x)blown bubbles
() made a bonfire on the beach
(x) crashed at a party
() Have Traveled more than 5 days with a car full of People
(x) gone rollerskating
(x) had a wish come true
() worn pearls
() jumped off a bridge
(x) screamed penis in class
() ate dog/cat food
(v) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) sang in the shower
(x) have a little black dress
() fucked in a park
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(v)glued your hand to something
() got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
() kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(x) been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
() had sex at a church
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
() done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
() didn't take a shower for a week
(x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had a tree house
() are scared to watch scary movies alone.
(x) believe in ghosts
() have more then 15 pairs of shoes
() worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
() gone streaking
(x)played ding-dong-ditch
() played chicken fight
(x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
(x) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
() caught a fish then ate it
(v) made porn
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
(x) mooned/flashed someone [probably..i cant remember..but only mooned. hah]
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) slept naked
() French braided someones hair
(x) gone skinny dippin in a pool
(x) been kicked out of your house
charles..im sorry i love you
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[-Wednesday 29th-] |
The Perfect Boyfriend.
Part 1 | Looks
- How Tall Would He Be? about 6 foot taller than me def
- Shoe Size? big but not goofy big
- Skinny or Fat? skinny with muscle but not huge
- Buff or Normal? normal
- Six Pack? yeah but natural
- Hair style? shaggy but not really long
- Hair Color? brown
- Eye Color? blue or green
- Dark, tan or Light? tan
- Contacts or Glasses? contacts
- Piercings? lip tougne eyebrow or librette or nipple if you have a nice body
- Braces or no? prefferably not
- Scars? i like scars there sexy
- Eyebrows? not waxed but no unibrow
- Bigg butt or Little butt? no butt
- Beard, mustache or other facial hair? not really no
- Chest Hair? ew
- Do you really care what he looks like? yes becasue im shallow and i have to be physically attracted to them to like them but personality usually changes how i think a person looks
Part 2 | Personality
- Nice or Mean? both
- Would he be caring? yes
- Would he be afraid to show his feelings? no
- Jealous type? yes but not extremly
- Flirty? yes but not with other girls
- Protective? yes
- Funny or Serious? funny but serious when hes gotta be
- Outgoing or Shy? out going but sometimes shy when hes nervous =)
- Lazy? sometimes but only wen i am
- Sarcastic or Sincere? sarcastic but sincere about some things
- Would he cuss? yes
Part 3 | Clothing Style
- Jeans or Khakis: jeans and i wont lie throwin in a few pairs of girls pants never hurt anyone
- Necklace: shell or hemps
- Bracelet(s): same thing
- Does he wear Make-up (like Armstrong or Kiss): nah
- Sweat jacket or jacket: hoodie or track jacket
- Band attire: yeah
- Casual or dressy: i like boys with style. i HATE prep and diesel and shit i dont like ghetto i like more skater
- Sandals, boots, or sneakers:ew not sandals at least not with out sox sneakers yeah but not gay ones
- Does he wear a chain, wallet chain etc.?: no
- Sock style?: ankle socks
- Does he wear shorts, or jeans all the time?: both
Part 4 | His Mind
- Can he speak another language, if yes what: german or italian
- Will he be artistic in some way: musically and drawing
- Will he "blind you with science?": umm idk
- Is he the writing type?: yeah but not like gay sappy poems
- Does he write songs: yah
- Does he write poetry: sure
- What's his career: idk something interstsing
- Can he write music: heck yes
- Over-achiever or slacker: over achiever
- Realistic or a Dreamer: dreamer
- Orderly or random?:random
- Can he play Guitar: yepp
- Can he play Piano: yeah
- Can he play Drums: i love drummers =)
- Does he play in a band: ahh guys in bands <3
- What type of music does he listen to: everything
- Does he play Video Games: probly
- Does he play Soccer: sure
- Does he play Football: yes
- Does he play any other sports: sure
- Does he skateboard, surf, or snowboard: yes
Does he like comics, American or Japanese: haha sure
- What type of movie genre does he like:comedy horror 80's and sometimes a chick flick
Does he like visual art things, like drawing and painting: yeah
- Does he like to read: yes
- An Internet addict?: idc
- Is he good in the kitchen?: yeah
- Does he enjoy writing?: sometimes
- What does he think of farming?:no
- Does he like hunting?: no
- Any other talents or hobbies: as long as hes passionate about something
Part 3 | Who He Is
<3- Does he have alot of girlfriends? no one other sorta serious one but hes not a player
<3- Would he hang out with you or his friends?: both
<3- Would he hang out with your friends?: yes
<3- Party or Stay Home?: both
<3- Would he have alot of friends?:yeah
<3- Smart or stupid?: smart
<3- Would he smoke?: i think smokers are sexy haha
<3- Drugs?:weed but thats it
<3- Would he tell you if he loves you?: yes
<3- Religious?: not like really really bt yeah
<3- If he had to pick the five most important things to him, what would they be: family friends me future and happiness
<3- Trouble-maker or good guy?: trouble maker but not like horrible
<3- What's his personality like?: funny nice but a dick at the same time spntaneous and always surprising me trusting in me and honest and straight forward
<3- Car: not a peice of shit but dosnt have to be perfect
Part 5 | When He's with You
- Hold hands? yeah
- Kiss you? yeah
- Hug you from behind? yeah
- Will he walk you to your door? yeah
- Will he open doors for you? yes
- Would He remember your anniversary? yes
- Would he lay under the stars with you? YES!!!! =)
- Would he cook for you? sometimes
- Would he act quiet and shy to be romantic? only wen hes nervous
- Would he be funny and playful? yes
Name 20 of your friends below.
1- alissa
2- rachel
3- oz
4- ann
5- marissa
6- Quinn
7- charles
8- berger
9- Matt
10- sarah
11- sigz
12- chelsea
13- mallorie
14- cracker pleese
15- tj
16- kev chiz
17- marc
18-kait
19- shaun
20- pete
Who is #8 going out with? kev cav
Is #9 a boy or a girl? boy
Would #11 and #2 make a cute couple? yes but theer straight
How about #18 and #4? hahhaa no
What grade is #17 in? junior
When was the last time you talked to #12? like a half hour ago
What is #6's favorite band? pearl jam
Does #1 have any siblings? yeah borhter andrew
Would you ever date #3? i love ozzz
Would you ever date #7? no i dont even no if were still friends
Is #16 single? yeah hes the shit call him
What's #15's last name? ummm idk
What's #10's middle name? marie
What's #5's favorite thing to do? haha get drunk
Is #13 hot? hell yes
Would #14 and #19 make a good couple? haha noo
What school does #20 go to? pompton lakes
Tell me a random fact about #11? she makes really good shrimp
And #1: shes the shit ummm she loves bsb
And #3: she has this really amazing way of knowing exactly how u feel and describing it perfectly
Have you ever had a crush on #15? ....haaa hes cool
Where does #9 live? off jocylynn
What's #4's favorite color? pink and brown
Would you make out with #14? hahaaa that would not be good
Are #5 & #6 best friends? not at all
Does #7 like #20? not at all
Does #8 like #19? they've never met but probly not
How did you meet #2? sarah
How did you meet #18? rachel
Does #10 have any pets? cats
Is #12 older than you? yes
Have oral relations with #3? nope
Is #17 the sexiest person alive? i love marc
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[-Thursday 5th-] |
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i wish i didnt fuckin still care about you so much.
dont be so hard on urself. ur not a horrible person i know your not.
i just wish you would talk to me and let me help you more.
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
GOD forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance....
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin chances but they're worth takin'
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin'
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to sellin' out reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance....
Its okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that Ill catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend
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[-Wednesday 16th-] |
natural hair color: brown
eye color: brown
number of siblings: 1 pj
glasses/contacts?: i should have them but no
piercings:ears and belly button
tatoos: not yet
FAVORITE
color: blues
band: matchbox 20
song: what its like-- everlast let her cry--hootie and the blow fish
stuffed animal: my teddy bear
video game: old school super mario
tv show: one tree hill real world and i love the 80 90s and umm life time stufff
movie: empire records casper resivour dogs how to loose a guy in 10 days life as a house swing kids blow the notebook scarface ect.
book: the 5 people you meet in heaven
food: cereal
game on cell phone: falling numbers
cd cover: idk
flower: rose
scent: when you hug boys and they smell good =)
animal: dog
comic book: umm idk
cereal: honey bunches of oats
website: myspace/live journal/google
cartoon: my dad the rock star
DO YOU
play an instrument?: i did
watch tv more then 60 hours a week?: no
like to sing?: yes
have a job?: yea babysit
have a cell phone?: yea
like to play sports?:some of them
have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: nope
have a crush on someone?: yupp
live somewhere NOT in the United States?:nope
have more then 5 TVs in your house?: nope
have any special talents/skills?: i can act kind of i guess i mean im in one acts
exersize daily?: im starting to run with berger wen it gets warm out but i walk like everywhere
like school?: noo bitch its like the root to all my problems loves to get me in trouble
CAN YOU
sing the alphabet backwards?: nah
stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes: yup
speak any other languages: spanish and a lil italian and a bit of polish thanx to the lewandowski family
go a day without food: yup
stay up for more than 24 hours: yup
read music..not just tabs: kind of
roll your tounge: no
eat a whole pizza: dominos yes any other no
HAVE YOU EVER
snuck out of the house: yeah once
cried to get out of trouble: yeah
gotten lost in your own city: well i dont live in a city but ive gotten lost before
seen a shooting star: yea
been to any other countries besides the united states: yea
had a serious surgery: yup
stolen something important to someone else: yeah
solved a rubiks cube: no
gone out in public in your pajamas: yea
cried over a girl: well like a girl who was my friend
cried over a guy: yeah
kissed a random stranger: lol yes cvs parking lot hha
hugged a random stranger: yea
been in a fist fight: with my brother
been arrested: no but like all my friends have
done drugs: yes
had alcohol:yes
laughed and had milk come out of your nose: ew no
pushed all the buttons on an elevator: no im too scared
gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc: no
swore at your parents: yes
been to warped tour: no
kicked a guy where it hurts: yes
been in love: yea
been close to love: yea
been to a casino: yeah
ran over an animal and killed it: well someone did while i was in the car
broken a bone: yea
gotten stitches: yea
had a waterballon fight in winter: no
drank a whole gallon of milk in an hour:nope
made homemade muffins: yea
bitten someone: yup
been to disneyland/disneyworld: no
more then five times: nope
been to niagra falls?: no
burped in someones face?: yea
gotten the chicken pox?: yea
WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
brushed your teeth?: this afternoon
went to the bathroom?: like an hour ago
saw a movie in the theaters?: umm like a month or 2 ago
read a book?: today
had a snow day?: last week or so
had a party?: ann has the partys i attend like every weekend
had a slumber party?: 2 weeks ago me ann and berger what up lolipopsss
made fun of someone?: science class today
tripped in front of someone?: other day
went to the grocery store?: like 4 days ago
got sick?: yesterday
cursed?: like a second ago
PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables: fruit
Black/white: black
Lights on/lights off: lights on scared of the dark
TV/movie: movie
Car/truck: car
Body spray/lotion: lotion
Cash/check: cash
Pillows/blankets: blankets
Headache/stomach ache: headache
Paint/charcol: paint
Chinese food/mexican food: chinese
Summer/winter: summer
Snow/rain: rain
Fog/misty: misty
Rock/rap: both
Meat/vegitarian: i dont really like meat
boy/girl: boy
chocolate/vanilla: swirl
Sprinkles/icing: sprinkles
Cake/pie: cake
French toast/french fries: french fries
Strawberries/blueberries: strawberries
Ocean/swimming pool: ocean
hugs/kisses: kisses
Cookies/muffins: muffins
wallet/pocket: pocket
Window/door: window
Emo/goth: emo
Pink/purple: pink
cat/dog: dog
Long sleeve/short sleeve: long sleeve
Pants/shorts: shorts
Winter break/spring break: spring break
Spring/autumn: spring
Clouds/clear sky: clear sky
Moon/mars: moon
FRIENDS
how many friends do you have?: umm alot but only a few really close ones
what are their names?: rachel oz alissa ann sarah charles berger chelsea and mallorie --bff
have you ever liked one of you friends?: yeah
do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?: girl friends
have you ever lost a friend?: yah
have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?: yea
have you ever gotten in a big argument with a friend?: yeah
whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?: idk always there for me
whats the nicest thing you've ever done for a friend?: helped them wen they were upset
how often do you spend time with your friends? everyday
do you miss any of your old friends?: yea
do any of your friends drive?: yea
has a friend of yours ever died?: kinda
whats the dumbest thing you've done for a friend?: idk but alissa embarreses me the most
OTHER
Have you ever been in love?: yea
Are you single?: yeah
Are you in a relationship?: no
do you believe there is someone for everyone?: no
what is your idea of the best date?: just hanging out with them
what was your first kiss like?: lol random but good
how old were you when you got your first kiss?: umm 14
do you think love is a load of shit?: nope
whats the best expirience you've ever had with the opposite sex?: there were a few..
WORD ASSOCIATION
slippers: feet
hat: backwords
hard: ass
free: shit
space: ship
taste: good
good charlotte: benjii
red: little red car
deep: end of the ocean
heart: attack
cord: guitar
cheese: cake
rain: rainbow
work: ew
pedal: flower
head: ache
bed: tired
fluff: bunny
hardcore: sex
race: car
knife: fork
jump: off my dick
i am: janna
want: haha i would say but i dont have to
need: you
crave: you
love: my friends and you
hate: drama
did: stuffff
feel: ok
miss: you
am annoyed by: jack and joey
would rather: not be babysitting
will always: be me
SILLY STUFF
what time is it now?: 3:37 pm
what day is it?: wednesday
whens the last time you called someone?: lsat night
whens the last time someone called you?: last night
how much money do you have right now?: 5 dollars
are you hungry?: no
whatcha doing?: babysitting and watchin hey arnold
do you like parades?: yeah
do you like the moon?: yea
what are you going to do when your done with this? idk play with jack
isn't cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?: actually no not really at all
if you could have any magical power what would it be?: read minds
have you ever had a picnic?: yea
did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?: yea
what about sock em boppers?: yeah
are you wearing any socks right now?:no
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?: well i crack myself up
pretty?: im ok
sarcastic?: yes
lazy?: yes
hyper?: at times
friendly?:yea
evil?: not really
smart?: no
strong?: people tell me i am
talented?: a little
dorky?: yes
FOR OR AGAINST
suicide: depends
love: depends
drunk drivers: against
airplanes: for
war: depends
canada: idc
united states: for
rock music: for
school: against except for the whole social asspect
surveys: for
parents: for
cars: for
killing: depends
britney spears: for
coffee: for
pants: for
WOULD YOU EVER
sky dive?: yea
play strip poker?: yup
run away?: yup
curse at a teacher?: yup
not take a shower for a week?: no
visit a foreign country for more then a month?: no
go scuba diving?: yea
write a book?: yup
become a rockstar?: yea
have casual sex?: no
LAST QUESTIONS
What shampoo do you use?: garnier fructiss
what kind of computer do you have?: dell
do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?: yup
or just make out?: thats fun too
how many posters do you have in your room?: alot
how many cds do you have?: alot
what time is it now?: 346
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[-Monday 14th-] |
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LAST PERSON WHO
x. Slept in your bed: me
x. Saw you cry: my grandma
x. Made you cry: g-ma flooo
x. You spent the night with: ann
x. You shared a drink with: berger?
x. You went to the movies with: ann pj arianna and danni
x. You went to the mall with: sigz and alissa
x. Yelled at you: gma
x. Sent you an email: my space
x. You kissed: lol dammit randy
HAVE YOU EVER...
x. Said "I love you" and meant it: yes
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: yeah
x. Been to New York: yea
x. Florida: yea
x. California: no
x. Hawaii: no
x. Mexico: yup
x. China: no
x. Canada: no
x. Danced naked: yeah
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: kind of
x. Wish you were the opposite sex: yup
x. Had an imaginary friend: yup still do haha
x. Fought with your parents: yea
PERSONAL THINGS
x. Things you like in a boy/ girl: teeth HANDS smoking haha umm always makin me laugh
x. What book are you reading now: jemima j
x. Worst feeling in the world: loving someone who dosnt love you back
x. Have you lied: yea
x. What is the first thing you think when you wake up: i wanna go back to sleep
x. Future daughter's name: destini neaveh brooke payten or maddison or paige
x. Future son's name: dominic bobby or leo or morgan or angelo
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: nope
x. What's under your bed: nothin my bed is on the floor
x. Favorite sport to watch: basketball or hockey
x. Current Age: 16
x. Siblings: pj
x. Location: pompton plains
x. Piercing/tattoos: like 6 in my ears and my belly button
x. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: nahh
EXTRA STUFF
x. Do you drink: yes
x. What are you most scared of: being alone or forgotten about
x. What clothes do you sleep in: my pajama pants and my please dont feed the models shirt
x. Where do you want to get married: beach
x. When Do you want to get married: mid 20's
x. Who do you really hate: i dont really hate anyone
x. Been in love: yes
x. Do you have a job: yup
x. Do you like being around people: yes
x. Are you for world peace: yeah
x. Are you a health freak: kinda
FAVORITE
x. Room in house: my room
x. Type(s) of music: everything but i especially like alternative
x. Color(s): all of the blues
x. Food(s): cereal and ceasar salad
x. Perfume or cologne: spark and abercrombie for guys and clinique happy for girls
x. Month: july
x. Day: saturday
x. Gemstone: idk my birthstone i guess
IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
x. Cried: yea
x. Bought something: yes
x. Gotten sick: my period made me feel sick if that counts
x. Sang: yea
x. Met someone new: yeh i think so
x. Talked to someone: yea
x. Missed someone: yup
x. Hugged someone: yea
x. Kissed someone: yup
umm that survey was maddd beatttt yooo
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[-Sunday 30th-] |
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so this week was testing it was aight got out of school early and had friday off ummm so thursday babysat then me and charles went to paneras and then we rented Blow good fuckin movie i love johnny depp ummm sooo then after that i went to sarahs and chilled with lee sarah rae oz and brian wen i got home gma picked me and all she said was go to sleep we'll talk about it in the morning and then we never did so umm that was pretty cool yeah and then friday i chilled at home and then went to p-town with oz and alissa and brian and was unfortunatly unsuccesful so that sucked but me and oz worked with wut we had so me and oz went to anns until sigz picked us up with some people to get some food it was a good night so then i went back to anns house at like 10 and then we chilled with jon actually ann chilled with jon i chilled with micheal and matt but it was all good and then jon brought us to my house at like 12 and me and ann chilled a little and then went to sleep so then on saturday at like 10 me ann and pj left for our crazy trip tp PA to visit my aunts uncles cousins and gma witch is always good i love them there soo chill and so much fun and i love gettin away from shit so we spent saturday and sunday there saturday we went to see my cuz danica play b-ball shes fuckin nuts and then at night we all went to this amazing chinse buffet it was sooo goood to bad its in PA and then me ariana danny pj and ann went to see Hide and Seek after my other aunts and cousins left to go home it was a really good movie i def recomment it soo hmm them we went home and chilled watched white chicks haha funny shit hmmm thne sunday i dyed my hair and just chilled nothin too special yeahhh soo hmmm im starting to smile again and be happy or at least try to im getting my head back in order cuz it was fucked up for a while hmm wut else o yeah say good bye to sleep for me cuz i got a job at kc bagels for 530a m till 12 over the weekend haha oo that should be funnnn wish me luckk hmm aight i think thats it wooot wen anns dad goes away shits gunna get crazyyyyy im excitedddd aight well that about wraps this baby up bye bye bye
sometimes you're flush sometimes you're bust
and when you're up it's never as good as it seems
and when you're down you never think you'll be up again
but life goes on
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[-Wednesday 19th-] |
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hands touch eyes meet
Sudden silence sudden heat
Hearts leap in a giddy whirl
He could be that boy
But I'm not that girl
Don't dream too far
Don't lose sight of who you are
Don't remember that rush of joy
He could be that boy
I'm not that girl
Every so often we long to steal
To the land of what-might-have-been
But that doesn't soften the ache we feel
When reality sets back in
don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you
And I don't know why
theres always something more i wish he'd say
i hate you
stop fucking around
this time please dont come back
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