. . .and all of this was all your fault

you live you learn

2006-04-27T04:27:07Z

woahhhh i have not updated this thing in forever its crazy

from my last entry i guess alot has changed. so ive fucked up pretty bad but i guess its for the best and the worst cuz its helped me relize somethings that i probably never would have relized on my own. it just sucks that i had to hurt someone who meant alot to me in order to relize it. but i guess the most important lessons really do come with the most pain. its gunna be real hard and im gunna miss him but i know ill be ok cuz if there is one thing ive learned growing up is that life goes on . i dont know im still extremely confused i dont know what the hell is going on and i really dont think that will ever change becasue thats just how ive always been but i think im ok with that i like the way i am for the most part im content with myself i have some things i need to work on but so does everyone else.

i love my friends all of them even the ones i dont see very often i dont know ive noticed that they really pull through for me when i need them. ive been spending a lot of time with the one and only fuckin kaitlyn osmundsen aka oz and she is amazingggggg ive always known it but idk today/tonight i just really noticed it. i really want to spend more time with sam soder cuz i dont see her enough and its always better when shes around i miss sarah harris my women me and rachel work together at carvel now so im really excited about that i miss mathew gorrel we were real close for a while and now were not and thats gay i dont see charles enough as i want to or ann or chelsea and mallorieee. alissa is just the shit. pat kenney has dissapeard from my life and thats not cool and i got really close with berger april and mary and kristen and i just dont understand how i ever lived with out them.oh yeah and amazingly kaitlyn merz has came back into my life and its awsome =) i dont know recently my weekends have been so good and i cant wait till summer o wow im really excited about prom/prom weekend hmmmm even though i cant share it with the one person i really wanted to but it will still be great oh wow and then after summer everyones going to collegee wow i feel like everything is just happening so fast its crazyyyy im sad but mostly excited and scared but more excited wow im really excited i usually hate change but im really excited to like be out there like living even though im scared of growing up ive really been looking forward to it my entire life i mean i dont want to be old i just want to like stay in my mid twenties early 30's forever woahhh wow i really got a head of myself haa its all good though idk im just in one of those moods hmmm well im gunna go watch road to peridition cuz charles let me borrow it cuz hes the shittttt ok welll nightttttt <3333

and last week i thought i was on to sumthin and the next week i was like nahh it was nuffffin

2005-07-19T21:52:30Z

hmmm so im babysitting and im watching Hercules the movie with Jack and Joey and im really bored because ive seen it like 4 times before soo hmm i was thinking of what i could go to amuse myself since i just found out that im stuck babysitting till at least 8 and i decided hey i havent updated my live journal in like forever so here i am....ummm i dont really get the point of having one of these things because absolutly no one reads them...seriously those of you who do write in them either write a log entry about your day and who the hell cares about that unless you are there friend in which case you most likely know what they did becasue you were problably with them or heard about it or your entry consists of a some song lyrics that describes how your feeling at the time but no one even gets the signifigance of it becasue they arent friends with you they just read your live journal when they are bored....not that its a bad thing i do it and it causes me some amusement for abouut 30 seconds but if your entry is over a paragraph long i dont even bother becasue when im all done reading it i really dont give a shit about anything you just wrote. another thing i hate is myspace...myspace is seriousoly i think one of the stupidest things every created i mean what is the point. i hate hate hate my space sluts who take slutty pictures of them selves and meet people on line and comment on peoples who they think is hott or asks people to be there friend when they have never before in there like met them or even plan on meeting them what is the thrill of telling someone you dont know that you think they are hott? and wanna meet them even though you know they read your comment and laugh at the fact that you are trying to flirt with them over myspaceeee i mean cmonnnnn you fuckin loserrr even though i have a myspace but i am friend with people i am friends with and i dont try to pick up guys off of it. anywayyy summer fuckin sux the whole end of the school year i built up this summer in my head and made my self so excited becasue i thought it was goin to be amazing. i was goin to chill with my friends be tan and goin down the shore like everyday i was goin to have a fuckin hott boyfriend with a nice car and hott body ha and i was goin to fuckin get laid there was goin to be absolutly no drama and i was goin to be high and drunk like every night haaa well this summmer is absolultly nothin like i imagained most of my nights consist of sitting at my friends house talkin about how we wish we were doin something fun or drunk it fuckin sux suprisingly the most fun i think i had this whole summer was sitting behinnd the high school with sarah just talking about everything serious shit and gay shit of course i went home like 2 hours late and got in a shit load of trouble but it didnt matter becsaue it was fun hmmm the night before that was actually really fun too though driving around with rachel quinn and charles fuckin freakin out over everything haha and the diner was fuckin fun but that was like the first night that was fun the whole summer i hate drama and i wish that all my friends who used to be friends would just fuckin stop being so gay and start being friends again becasue you all know that you want to and it would make this summer so much better and easier anywayyy oz gets her licence tomorrow and happily i dont have work tomorrow becasue i have it today and it kind of worked out for the best and i get my licence in 14 days exactly 2 weeks =) but my fuckiin car is broken as of right now i got the beees out so thats a fuckin plus but now i need a new battery and "a cable is loose" or what ever fuckin bob said haaa bob...ew well i have to get that shit fixed so thats money and then yesterday my grandma pulls this shit that shes not giving me the car becasue shes giving it to my aunt until she gets a new car i love my aunt liz my seriosly noo bitchhh anywayyy so next year im gunna be a big bad senior woo and next year is gunna be the shit even though it probly wont be becasue i say that about every year and its always the same but well see hmmm so i think im pretty much finished with this cuz i have to go tend to joey and jack cuz there beating the shit outta eachother so yeah o yeah and if anyone wants to teach me to parallel park with in the next 2 weeks it would be greatly apreciated so get back to me or if you want to go down the shore that would be hott too ok byeee

ps Anthony if you read this whole thing wow i love youu haaa

flipppppin bored

2005-05-24T02:10:25Z

X - applies to you fully/ v - applies to you partially

(x) smoked a cigarette
(x) smoked a cigar
(x) smoked anything else
(x) made out with a member of the same sex
() crashed a friend's car
() stolen a car
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
(x) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out of my parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
() been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
() gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(v) skipped school
() slept with a co-worker
(v) seen someone die
() had a crush on one of your MYSPACE friends
() been to Canada
(x) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
() thrown up in a bar
(x) purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) eaten Sushi
(x) been snowboarding
() met someone in person from MYSPACE
(v) been moshing at a concert
(v) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
(x) watched the sun set
() felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) been tickled
() been robbed
() robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
(x) pet a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(v) run a red light/stop sign
() been suspended from school
(x) had detention
(x) been in a car accident
(x) Felt like an outcast
() eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
(v) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
()been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
() been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
() played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
() laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) kissed in the rain
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
() been kissed under a mistletoe
(v) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(x)blown bubbles
() made a bonfire on the beach
(x) crashed at a party
() Have Traveled more than 5 days with a car full of People
(x) gone rollerskating
(x) had a wish come true
() worn pearls
() jumped off a bridge
(x) screamed penis in class
() ate dog/cat food
(v) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) sang in the shower
(x) have a little black dress
() fucked in a park
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(v)glued your hand to something
() got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
() kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(x) been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
() had sex at a church
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
() done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
() didn't take a shower for a week
(x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had a tree house
() are scared to watch scary movies alone.
(x) believe in ghosts
() have more then 15 pairs of shoes
() worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
() gone streaking
(x)played ding-dong-ditch
() played chicken fight
(x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
(x) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
() caught a fish then ate it
(v) made porn
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
(x) mooned/flashed someone [probably..i cant remember..but only mooned. hah]
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) slept naked
() French braided someones hair
(x) gone skinny dippin in a pool
(x) been kicked out of your house

charles..im sorry i love you

look what happens wen u get bored

2005-05-12T02:15:47Z

The Perfect Boyfriend.
Part 1 | Looks

- How Tall Would He Be? about 6 foot taller than me def
- Shoe Size? big but not goofy big
- Skinny or Fat? skinny with muscle but not huge
- Buff or Normal? normal
- Six Pack? yeah but natural
- Hair style? shaggy but not really long
- Hair Color? brown
- Eye Color? blue or green
- Dark, tan or Light? tan
- Contacts or Glasses? contacts
- Piercings? lip tougne eyebrow or librette or nipple if you have a nice body
- Braces or no? prefferably not
- Scars? i like scars there sexy
- Eyebrows? not waxed but no unibrow
- Bigg butt or Little butt? no butt
- Beard, mustache or other facial hair? not really no
- Chest Hair? ew
- Do you really care what he looks like? yes becasue im shallow and i have to be physically attracted to them to like them but personality usually changes how i think a person looks

Part 2 | Personality

- Nice or Mean? both
- Would he be caring? yes
- Would he be afraid to show his feelings? no
- Jealous type? yes but not extremly
- Flirty? yes but not with other girls
- Protective? yes
- Funny or Serious? funny but serious when hes gotta be
- Outgoing or Shy? out going but sometimes shy when hes nervous =)
- Lazy? sometimes but only wen i am
- Sarcastic or Sincere? sarcastic but sincere about some things
- Would he cuss? yes

Part 3 | Clothing Style

- Jeans or Khakis: jeans and i wont lie throwin in a few pairs of girls pants never hurt anyone
- Necklace: shell or hemps
- Bracelet(s): same thing
- Does he wear Make-up (like Armstrong or Kiss): nah
- Sweat jacket or jacket: hoodie or track jacket
- Band attire: yeah
- Casual or dressy: i like boys with style. i HATE prep and diesel and shit i dont like ghetto i like more skater
- Sandals, boots, or sneakers:ew not sandals at least not with out sox sneakers yeah but not gay ones
- Does he wear a chain, wallet chain etc.?: no
- Sock style?: ankle socks
- Does he wear shorts, or jeans all the time?: both

Part 4 | His Mind

- Can he speak another language, if yes what: german or italian
- Will he be artistic in some way: musically and drawing
- Will he "blind you with science?": umm idk
- Is he the writing type?: yeah but not like gay sappy poems
- Does he write songs: yah
- Does he write poetry: sure
- What's his career: idk something interstsing
- Can he write music: heck yes
- Over-achiever or slacker: over achiever
- Realistic or a Dreamer: dreamer
- Orderly or random?:random
- Can he play Guitar: yepp
- Can he play Piano: yeah
- Can he play Drums: i love drummers =)
- Does he play in a band: ahh guys in bands <3
- What type of music does he listen to: everything
- Does he play Video Games: probly
- Does he play Soccer: sure
- Does he play Football: yes
- Does he play any other sports: sure
- Does he skateboard, surf, or snowboard: yes
Does he like comics, American or Japanese: haha sure
- What type of movie genre does he like:comedy horror 80's and sometimes a chick flick
Does he like visual art things, like drawing and painting: yeah
- Does he like to read: yes
- An Internet addict?: idc
- Is he good in the kitchen?: yeah
- Does he enjoy writing?: sometimes
- What does he think of farming?:no
- Does he like hunting?: no
- Any other talents or hobbies: as long as hes passionate about something

Part 3 | Who He Is

<3- Does he have alot of girlfriends? no one other sorta serious one but hes not a player
<3- Would he hang out with you or his friends?: both
<3- Would he hang out with your friends?: yes
<3- Party or Stay Home?: both
<3- Would he have alot of friends?:yeah
<3- Smart or stupid?: smart
<3- Would he smoke?: i think smokers are sexy haha
<3- Drugs?:weed but thats it
<3- Would he tell you if he loves you?: yes
<3- Religious?: not like really really bt yeah
<3- If he had to pick the five most important things to him, what would they be: family friends me future and happiness
<3- Trouble-maker or good guy?: trouble maker but not like horrible
<3- What's his personality like?: funny nice but a dick at the same time spntaneous and always surprising me trusting in me and honest and straight forward
<3- Car: not a peice of shit but dosnt have to be perfect

Part 5 | When He's with You

- Hold hands? yeah
- Kiss you? yeah
- Hug you from behind? yeah
- Will he walk you to your door? yeah
- Will he open doors for you? yes
- Would He remember your anniversary? yes
- Would he lay under the stars with you? YES!!!! =)
- Would he cook for you? sometimes
- Would he act quiet and shy to be romantic? only wen hes nervous
- Would he be funny and playful? yes

Name 20 of your friends below.

1- alissa
2- rachel
3- oz
4- ann
5- marissa
6- Quinn
7- charles
8- berger
9- Matt
10- sarah
11- sigz
12- chelsea
13- mallorie
14- cracker pleese
15- tj
16- kev chiz
17- marc
18-kait
19- shaun
20- pete

Who is #8 going out with? kev cav

Is #9 a boy or a girl? boy

Would #11 and #2 make a cute couple? yes but theer straight

How about #18 and #4? hahhaa no

What grade is #17 in? junior

When was the last time you talked to #12? like a half hour ago

What is #6's favorite band? pearl jam

Does #1 have any siblings? yeah borhter andrew

Would you ever date #3? i love ozzz

Would you ever date #7? no i dont even no if were still friends

Is #16 single? yeah hes the shit call him

What's #15's last name? ummm idk

What's #10's middle name? marie

What's #5's favorite thing to do? haha get drunk

Is #13 hot? hell yes

Would #14 and #19 make a good couple? haha noo

What school does #20 go to? pompton lakes

Tell me a random fact about #11? she makes really good shrimp

And #1: shes the shit ummm she loves bsb

And #3: she has this really amazing way of knowing exactly how u feel and describing it perfectly

Have you ever had a crush on #15? ....haaa hes cool

Where does #9 live? off jocylynn

What's #4's favorite color? pink and brown

Would you make out with #14? hahaaa that would not be good

Are #5 & #6 best friends? not at all

Does #7 like #20? not at all

Does #8 like #19? they've never met but probly not

How did you meet #2? sarah

How did you meet #18? rachel

Does #10 have any pets? cats

Is #12 older than you? yes

Have oral relations with #3? nope

Is #17 the sexiest person alive? i love marc

wishu wuld step back from that ledge my friendu could cut ties w/all the lies that uve been livin in

2005-03-18T03:51:37Z

i wish i didnt fuckin still care about you so much.
dont be so hard on urself. ur not a horrible person i know your not.
i just wish you would talk to me and let me help you more.

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
GOD forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance....
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin chances but they're worth takin'
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin'
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to sellin' out reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance....

Its okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that Ill catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend

ummyeah_cuz @ 2005-03-16T15:28:00

2005-03-16T20:45:58Z

natural hair color: brown
eye color: brown
number of siblings: 1 pj
glasses/contacts?: i should have them but no
piercings:ears and belly button
tatoos: not yet

FAVORITE
color: blues
band: matchbox 20
song: what its like-- everlast let her cry--hootie and the blow fish
stuffed animal: my teddy bear
video game: old school super mario
tv show: one tree hill real world and i love the 80 90s and umm life time stufff
movie: empire records casper resivour dogs how to loose a guy in 10 days life as a house swing kids blow the notebook scarface ect.
book: the 5 people you meet in heaven
food: cereal
game on cell phone: falling numbers
cd cover: idk
flower: rose
scent: when you hug boys and they smell good =)
animal: dog
comic book: umm idk
cereal: honey bunches of oats
website: myspace/live journal/google
cartoon: my dad the rock star

DO YOU
play an instrument?: i did
watch tv more then 60 hours a week?: no
like to sing?: yes
have a job?: yea babysit
have a cell phone?: yea
like to play sports?:some of them
have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: nope
have a crush on someone?: yupp
live somewhere NOT in the United States?:nope
have more then 5 TVs in your house?: nope
have any special talents/skills?: i can act kind of i guess i mean im in one acts
exersize daily?: im starting to run with berger wen it gets warm out but i walk like everywhere
like school?: noo bitch its like the root to all my problems loves to get me in trouble

CAN YOU
sing the alphabet backwards?: nah
stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes: yup
speak any other languages: spanish and a lil italian and a bit of polish thanx to the lewandowski family
go a day without food: yup
stay up for more than 24 hours: yup
read music..not just tabs: kind of
roll your tounge: no
eat a whole pizza: dominos yes any other no

HAVE YOU EVER
snuck out of the house: yeah once
cried to get out of trouble: yeah
gotten lost in your own city: well i dont live in a city but ive gotten lost before
seen a shooting star: yea
been to any other countries besides the united states: yea
had a serious surgery: yup
stolen something important to someone else: yeah
solved a rubiks cube: no
gone out in public in your pajamas: yea
cried over a girl: well like a girl who was my friend
cried over a guy: yeah
kissed a random stranger: lol yes cvs parking lot hha
hugged a random stranger: yea
been in a fist fight: with my brother
been arrested: no but like all my friends have
done drugs: yes
had alcohol:yes
laughed and had milk come out of your nose: ew no
pushed all the buttons on an elevator: no im too scared
gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc: no
swore at your parents: yes
been to warped tour: no
kicked a guy where it hurts: yes
been in love: yea
been close to love: yea
been to a casino: yeah
ran over an animal and killed it: well someone did while i was in the car
broken a bone: yea
gotten stitches: yea
had a waterballon fight in winter: no
drank a whole gallon of milk in an hour:nope
made homemade muffins: yea
bitten someone: yup
been to disneyland/disneyworld: no
more then five times: nope
been to niagra falls?: no
burped in someones face?: yea
gotten the chicken pox?: yea

WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
brushed your teeth?: this afternoon
went to the bathroom?: like an hour ago
saw a movie in the theaters?: umm like a month or 2 ago
read a book?: today
had a snow day?: last week or so
had a party?: ann has the partys i attend like every weekend
had a slumber party?: 2 weeks ago me ann and berger what up lolipopsss
made fun of someone?: science class today
tripped in front of someone?: other day
went to the grocery store?: like 4 days ago
got sick?: yesterday
cursed?: like a second ago

PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables: fruit
Black/white: black
Lights on/lights off: lights on scared of the dark
TV/movie: movie
Car/truck: car
Body spray/lotion: lotion
Cash/check: cash
Pillows/blankets: blankets
Headache/stomach ache: headache
Paint/charcol: paint
Chinese food/mexican food: chinese
Summer/winter: summer
Snow/rain: rain
Fog/misty: misty
Rock/rap: both
Meat/vegitarian: i dont really like meat
boy/girl: boy
chocolate/vanilla: swirl
Sprinkles/icing: sprinkles
Cake/pie: cake
French toast/french fries: french fries
Strawberries/blueberries: strawberries
Ocean/swimming pool: ocean
hugs/kisses: kisses
Cookies/muffins: muffins
wallet/pocket: pocket
Window/door: window
Emo/goth: emo
Pink/purple: pink
cat/dog: dog
Long sleeve/short sleeve: long sleeve
Pants/shorts: shorts
Winter break/spring break: spring break
Spring/autumn: spring
Clouds/clear sky: clear sky
Moon/mars: moon

FRIENDS
how many friends do you have?: umm alot but only a few really close ones
what are their names?: rachel oz alissa ann sarah charles berger chelsea and mallorie --bff
have you ever liked one of you friends?: yeah
do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?: girl friends
have you ever lost a friend?: yah
have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?: yea
have you ever gotten in a big argument with a friend?: yeah
whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?: idk always there for me
whats the nicest thing you've ever done for a friend?: helped them wen they were upset
how often do you spend time with your friends? everyday
do you miss any of your old friends?: yea
do any of your friends drive?: yea
has a friend of yours ever died?: kinda
whats the dumbest thing you've done for a friend?: idk but alissa embarreses me the most

OTHER
Have you ever been in love?: yea
Are you single?: yeah
Are you in a relationship?: no
do you believe there is someone for everyone?: no
what is your idea of the best date?: just hanging out with them
what was your first kiss like?: lol random but good
how old were you when you got your first kiss?: umm 14
do you think love is a load of shit?: nope
whats the best expirience you've ever had with the opposite sex?: there were a few..

WORD ASSOCIATION
slippers: feet
hat: backwords
hard: ass
free: shit
space: ship
taste: good
good charlotte: benjii
red: little red car
deep: end of the ocean
heart: attack
cord: guitar
cheese: cake
rain: rainbow
work: ew
pedal: flower
head: ache
bed: tired
fluff: bunny
hardcore: sex
race: car
knife: fork
jump: off my dick
i am: janna
want: haha i would say but i dont have to
need: you
crave: you
love: my friends and you
hate: drama
did: stuffff
feel: ok
miss: you
am annoyed by: jack and joey
would rather: not be babysitting
will always: be me

SILLY STUFF
what time is it now?: 3:37 pm
what day is it?: wednesday
whens the last time you called someone?: lsat night
whens the last time someone called you?: last night
how much money do you have right now?: 5 dollars
are you hungry?: no
whatcha doing?: babysitting and watchin hey arnold
do you like parades?: yeah
do you like the moon?: yea
what are you going to do when your done with this? idk play with jack
isn't cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?: actually no not really at all
if you could have any magical power what would it be?: read minds
have you ever had a picnic?: yea
did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?: yea
what about sock em boppers?: yeah
are you wearing any socks right now?:no

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?: well i crack myself up
pretty?: im ok
sarcastic?: yes
lazy?: yes
hyper?: at times
friendly?:yea
evil?: not really
smart?: no
strong?: people tell me i am
talented?: a little
dorky?: yes

FOR OR AGAINST
suicide: depends
love: depends
drunk drivers: against
airplanes: for
war: depends
canada: idc
united states: for
rock music: for
school: against except for the whole social asspect
surveys: for
parents: for
cars: for
killing: depends
britney spears: for
coffee: for
pants: for

WOULD YOU EVER
sky dive?: yea
play strip poker?: yup
run away?: yup
curse at a teacher?: yup
not take a shower for a week?: no
visit a foreign country for more then a month?: no
go scuba diving?: yea
write a book?: yup
become a rockstar?: yea
have casual sex?: no

LAST QUESTIONS
What shampoo do you use?: garnier fructiss
what kind of computer do you have?: dell
do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?: yup
or just make out?: thats fun too
how many posters do you have in your room?: alot
how many cds do you have?: alot
what time is it now?: 346

ummyeah_cuz @ 2005-03-14T21:34:00

2005-03-15T02:55:13Z

LAST PERSON WHO
x. Slept in your bed: me
x. Saw you cry: my grandma
x. Made you cry: g-ma flooo
x. You spent the night with: ann
x. You shared a drink with: berger?
x. You went to the movies with: ann pj arianna and danni
x. You went to the mall with: sigz and alissa
x. Yelled at you: gma
x. Sent you an email: my space
x. You kissed: lol dammit randy

HAVE YOU EVER...
x. Said "I love you" and meant it: yes
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: yeah
x. Been to New York: yea
x. Florida: yea
x. California: no
x. Hawaii: no
x. Mexico: yup
x. China: no
x. Canada: no
x. Danced naked: yeah
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: kind of
x. Wish you were the opposite sex: yup
x. Had an imaginary friend: yup still do haha
x. Fought with your parents: yea

PERSONAL THINGS
x. Things you like in a boy/ girl: teeth HANDS smoking haha umm always makin me laugh
x. What book are you reading now: jemima j
x. Worst feeling in the world: loving someone who dosnt love you back
x. Have you lied: yea
x. What is the first thing you think when you wake up: i wanna go back to sleep
x. Future daughter's name: destini neaveh brooke payten or maddison or paige
x. Future son's name: dominic bobby or leo or morgan or angelo
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: nope
x. What's under your bed: nothin my bed is on the floor
x. Favorite sport to watch: basketball or hockey
x. Current Age: 16
x. Siblings: pj
x. Location: pompton plains
x. Piercing/tattoos: like 6 in my ears and my belly button
x. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: nahh

EXTRA STUFF
x. Do you drink: yes
x. What are you most scared of: being alone or forgotten about
x. What clothes do you sleep in: my pajama pants and my please dont feed the models shirt
x. Where do you want to get married: beach
x. When Do you want to get married: mid 20's
x. Who do you really hate: i dont really hate anyone
x. Been in love: yes
x. Do you have a job: yup
x. Do you like being around people: yes
x. Are you for world peace: yeah
x. Are you a health freak: kinda

FAVORITE
x. Room in house: my room
x. Type(s) of music: everything but i especially like alternative
x. Color(s): all of the blues
x. Food(s): cereal and ceasar salad
x. Perfume or cologne: spark and abercrombie for guys and clinique happy for girls
x. Month: july
x. Day: saturday
x. Gemstone: idk my birthstone i guess

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
x. Cried: yea
x. Bought something: yes
x. Gotten sick: my period made me feel sick if that counts
x. Sang: yea
x. Met someone new: yeh i think so
x. Talked to someone: yea
x. Missed someone: yup
x. Hugged someone: yea
x. Kissed someone: yup

umm that survey was maddd beatttt yooo

I've left pieces of my heart here and there now theres almost not enough to stay alive

2005-01-31T03:08:17Z

so this week was testing it was aight got out of school early and had friday off ummm so thursday babysat then me and charles went to paneras and then we rented Blow good fuckin movie i love johnny depp ummm sooo then after that i went to sarahs and chilled with lee sarah rae oz and brian wen i got home gma picked me and all she said was go to sleep we'll talk about it in the morning and then we never did so umm that was pretty cool yeah and then friday i chilled at home and then went to p-town with oz and alissa and brian and was unfortunatly unsuccesful so that sucked but me and oz worked with wut we had so me and oz went to anns until sigz picked us up with some people to get some food it was a good night so then i went back to anns house at like 10 and then we chilled with jon actually ann chilled with jon i chilled with micheal and matt but it was all good and then jon brought us to my house at like 12 and me and ann chilled a little and then went to sleep so then on saturday at like 10 me ann and pj left for our crazy trip tp PA to visit my aunts uncles cousins and gma witch is always good i love them there soo chill and so much fun and i love gettin away from shit so we spent saturday and sunday there saturday we went to see my cuz danica play b-ball shes fuckin nuts and then at night we all went to this amazing chinse buffet it was sooo goood to bad its in PA and then me ariana danny pj and ann went to see Hide and Seek after my other aunts and cousins left to go home it was a really good movie i def recomment it soo hmm them we went home and chilled watched white chicks haha funny shit hmmm thne sunday i dyed my hair and just chilled nothin too special yeahhh soo hmmm im starting to smile again and be happy or at least try to im getting my head back in order cuz it was fucked up for a while hmm wut else o yeah say good bye to sleep for me cuz i got a job at kc bagels for 530a m till 12 over the weekend haha oo that should be funnnn wish me luckk hmm aight i think thats it wooot wen anns dad goes away shits gunna get crazyyyyy im excitedddd aight well that about wraps this baby up bye bye bye

sometimes you're flush sometimes you're bust
and when you're up it's never as good as it seems
and when you're down you never think you'll be up again
but life goes on

wE g0t inChes away. . anD i neVeR evEn g0t cl0sE

2005-01-20T03:38:30Z

hands touch eyes meet
Sudden silence sudden heat
Hearts leap in a giddy whirl
He could be that boy
But I'm not that girl

Don't dream too far
Don't lose sight of who you are
Don't remember that rush of joy
He could be that boy
I'm not that girl

Every so often we long to steal
To the land of what-might-have-been
But that doesn't soften the ache we feel
When reality sets back in

don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart

I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you
And I don't know why

theres always something more i wish he'd say

i hate you
stop fucking around
this time please dont come back

likeXwoah im bizzak fo' shizzle niZzle

2005-01-14T01:43:28Z

nothing to write
nothing ever to write
ummm yeah updates are supposed to update people on whats going on in ur life i guess
but theres nothing to update on theres nothin ever new goin on
always the same shitty bored feeling
and everything that has been goin on in my life for like forever is still goin on
exactly that same way as always i need some fuckin excitment real real badd
not even excitment just something interesting or just NEW cuz im sooo boredd
ya no i read all of these peoples live journals and they all have such private intimate entries and it inspires me to write one about how im feeling and as soon as im done i look at it and im like wtf do i really want all these people reading my shit and knowing whats goin through my head and how i feel..? and then i delete it and write an entry like this becasue i relize there my feelings and its what i think and if i wanted u to know id tell u i mean i really dont want everyone to see me wen im upset cuz it would totally kill my i dont give a shit image haha (thanx chelsea) but yeah that about wraps this baby up and i would jsut like to say who ever reads this if u write crazy personal entrys im not making fun of u i think its cool that u can be soo open and vulnerable to people but thats just not how i roll haha and u no wuts great about me i could like/hate/love/loath/despise/kinda like you and ud never no cuz im just that good i like to keep u on the edge haha aight well im really souped for the 3 day weekend soo yeah im gunna go peaceee

one day your gunna love me the way i love you and that day is goin to be amazing....

because im gunna laugh at u and fuck with u until u cant stand it while im with my amazingly hott rich boyfriend who has a nice car and hot body and would do absolutly anything for me and is realllyy good in bedddd

hes so cool gunna sneak in his window everythings better when hes around

2004-12-14T02:10:11Z

001. What is your name? janna
002. Spell your name backwards: annaj
003. Date of birth: august 3rd 88
004. Male or female? girl
005. Astrological sign: leo
006. Nicknames: j famz janna famz yanni women
007. Reppin': pompton plains
008. Height: 5' 4"
009. Weight: around 13oish
010. Hair color: dark brown with a reddish tint
011. eye color: brown
012. Where were you born? st josephs
013. Where do you reside now? pompton plains
014. Age: 16
015. Screen names: jamafa341
016. Do you have an E-mail addy: yeah
017. What does your screen name stand for? ja=janna ma=marie fa=famiano
018. What is your xanga name? no
019. What does your Blurty name stand for? no
020. Pets: i miss my dogsssssss
021. Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake? like 3
022. Piercings? ears and belly button
023. Tattoo's? zero as of now
024. Pant size: hmm idk depends
025. Righty or lefty? lefty
026. Wearing: jays catch 22 sweatshirt and pjs sweat pants
027. Hearing: musica
028. Feeling: chill and sick
029. Eating/drinking: nada

~Girls/Love/Kissing/And Other Stuff~
061. Have you ever been in love? i was close...i think
062. How many people have you told "I love you"? like 7
063. How many people have you been in love with? i thought i loved one person but then i got with another person and it felt completly differnt with him and i thought i was falling in love with him so idk that confused me so i dont think ive ever really been in love
114. Does someone in your family wear a toupee? no
115. Do you have any nieces or nephews? yeah
116. Are your parents divorced? yes
117. Do you have step parents? well if i talked to my dad id have a step mom but i dont so no
118. Has your family ever disowned another member of your family? kinda
119. If so for what? being a dick
120. Did some of your family come to America from another country? my second cousin came from italy

~Music Stuff~
121. What song do you swear was written about you or your life? sum 41 fat lip just cuz im listening to it right now though and its me and sarahs song
122. What's the most embarrasing cd you own? i like ALL my cds
123. What's the best cd you own? idk
124. What song do you absolutely hate? ummm cold play songs
125. Do you sing in the shower? yeah yo
126. What song reminds you of that special someone? like the whole michelle branch cd

~Okay, I Name An Artist And You Give A Lyric From Any One Of Their Songs!~
127. Pink: dont let me get me
128. Aerosmith: i could stay awake just to hear u breathing
129. Madonna: i looked into ur eyes and my whole world came tumbling down
130. Korn: feelin like a freak on a leash
131. Backstreet Boys: hey mr dj keep playing that song for me
132. The Beatles: over meee
133. Sublime: it does not pay to be drunk and horney
134. J.Lo: cuz im reallll the way i talk the way i walk
135. *Nsync: i was hangin with the fellas saw u with ur new boyfriend it made me jealous
136. Limp Bizkit: you think ur special u do i can see it in ur eyes
137. Britney Spears: santa can you hear me
138. Creed: ------
139. Enrique Iglesias: i can be your hero baby
140. Good Charlotte: just because i walk like obie one canobie you people ttalk but u dont even know me
141. Christina Aguilera: c'mon over baby c'mon over baby all i want is you
142. Eminem:You don't know how sick you make me You make me fuckin' sick to my stomach
Everytime i think of you, i puke You must just not know You may not think you do, but you do Every time I think of you
143. New Found Glory: Here's to us fools that have no meaning I tip my glass to you Let's toast the night away to friends And forget about tomorrow.
144. Kelly Clarkston: heres the thing we started out friends
145. Kelly Osbourne: shut up
146. Mandy Moore: forever was in ur eyes the moment i saw u cry
147. Eve: love is blind and it will take over ur mind what u think is love is really not u have to elevate and find
148. Aaliyah: at first yuo dont suceed dust ur self off and try again
149. Nelly: undele undele mommy ei
150. Alicia Keys: some people want it all bt i dont want nothin at all if it aint you
151. Incubus: you do something to me that i cant explain

~Favorites~
152. Color: green and blue
153. Food: cereal bagels chicken ceasr salad wrap
154. Song: too many
155. Show: i love the 80 90 ect umm and laguna beach and real world and all that other shit on vh1
156. school subject: sociology
157. Band/singer: sublime mad caddies streetlight ummm eminem and jay z
158. Animal: dogs and gorilla
159. Outfit: jeans, thong, sneakers, black and pink cammies and the gray sweater
160. Radio station: z100 and krock hot 97
161. Movie: jay and silent bob strike back empire records the girl next door scar face and the notebook
162. Pair of shoes: the sauconys im getting
163. Cartoon: fairly odd parents and rocket power
164. Actor: johnny depp/adam sandler
165. Actress:
166. Potato chip: baked layes
67. Drink: dr pepper and sprite
168. Alcholic drink: bacardi
169. Holiday: christmas
170. Perfume/cologne: clinique...and for guys.. spark
171. Pizza topping: extra cheese
172. Jello flavor: blue
173. Lunch meat: roast beef
174. Board game: life
175. Video game: mario kart and tony hawk
176. Website: umm hmm probly live journal cuz its the only one i go to
177. Book: the 5 people u meet in heaven
178. Computer game: solitaire
179. Number: 3 and 10
180. Cereal: honey comb and honey bunches of oats
181. Comedian: dane crooks
182. Dessert: ice cream cake
183. Disney character: stitch
184. Clothing store: pacsun
185. Passtime: my friends and softball
186. Teacher: umm zablocki and wagner
187. Childhood toy: umm legos
188. Carnival game/ride: any roller coasters
189. Candy bar: kit kat and snickers
190. Magazine: seven teen
191. Salad dressing: ceaser and ranch
192. Thing to do on the weekend: friends
193. Hot drink: hot chocolate and french vanilla latte
194. Season: summer
195. Sport to watch: football
196. Person to talk to online: alissas bf chris hes fun

~Your Bedroom/Sleeping Habits~
197. What color are your sheets? purple
198. What color is your tv? black and silver
199. Do you have posters on your wall? yes
200. If so of what? randon shit
201. Do you have a tv in your bedroom? yeah
202. How many pillows are on your bed? 3
203. What do you normally sleep in? comfy shorts and a camy
204. Describe your favorite pair of pajamas: black comfy shorts and anns pequannock track t-shirt
205. What size bed do you have? double
206. Do you have a waterbed/bunkbed/daybed? no
207. Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom? no but i have my cell fone
208. Do you listen to music while trying to fall asleep? sometimes
209. Describe the last nightmare you had: i was like all olne in this scary place
210. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? no
211. How many people can comfortably sleep in your bed? like 3
212. Do you sleep in any unusual positions? nah not really
213. Do you have to share your bedroom with a sibling? no
214. Do you snore? idk ive been told i make a really weird clicky noise
215. How about drool? sometimes
216. Do you have an alarm clock in your room? yes
217. What color is the carpet in your room? pinkish red
218. What's under your bed? floor

~This or that~
219. beach/mountains: beach
220. Donuts/bagels: bagels
221. Day/night: night
222. Wicked witch of the east/wicked witch of the west: east
223. Heaven/hell: heaven
224. Make love/have sex: make love
225. Coffee/tea: cofee
228. Britney/Christina: christina
229. Swiss cheese/american cheese: american
230. Real World/Road Rules: real world
231. Backstreet Boys/*Nsync: both
232. Silver/gold: silver

234. McDonalds/Taco Bell: taco bell
235. Sweet/sour: both
236. Punk/emo: punk sometimes emo idk
237. Hot/cold: in between
238. Winter/summer: summer
239. Spring/fall: spring
240. Operas/plays: plays
241. Read/watch tv: watch tv
242. Cd's/tapes: cds
243. Dvd's/vhs: both is fine
244. Old/new: depends
245. Shorts/skirts: shorts
246. Pink/red: pink
247. Colored pictures/black and white photos: both
248. Meat/vegetables: vegetables
249. Mexican food/chinese food:both but really chinese
250. Commercials/infomercials: both
251. Scary movies/comedies: scary with boys and cmedies too
252. Bikinis/one piece bathing suits: bikinis
253. Sandals/tennis shoes: sandals
254. Dogs/cats: dogs
255. Unicorns/fairies: fairies
256. Water/land: beach
257. Sugar/spice: sugar
258. Black/white: black
259. ribbons/bows: both
260. Chicken/beef: chicken
261. Colored christmas lights/regular white christmas lights: the really cool colored ones i discovered
262. Cars/trucks: cars but if a truck either a low rider or a monster truck
263. Austin Powers/James Bond: austin powers
264. Popcorn/pretzels: popcorn
265. Hip/hop: hip hop
266. Passionate kiss/peck: passionate kiss
267. WWE wrestling/real wrestling: wwe wrestling
268. Back rub/foot massage: back rub but foot massages are good too
269. Picture frames/photo albums: picture frames
270. Pens/pencils: pens

~What Is Your Opinion Of The Following~
271. Eminem: hot
272. Virgins: aight
273. God: ummm
274. The Osbournes: cool
275. Reality TV: woot
276. J.Lo: slut
277. Religion: over rated
278. Emo music: sometimes
279. Valentine's Day: mabey if i had a guy on it
280. Christina Aguilera's comeback: aight cool
281. Homosexuals: yeah
282. Abortion: if needed
283. Inter-racial relationships: sure
284. Murder: depends on the situation
285. Death: yes
286. Obesity: yuck
287. Pre-marital sex: sure
288. Terrorism: stupid fuck
289. Pornography: gross
290. Fortune tellers: idk mabey
291. Threesomes: sure
292. Prostitution: ehh what ever floats ur boat
293. Politics: stupid
294. Country music: some is okay
295. George W. Bush: nah
296. Cloning: umm idk
297. Britney's boobs: shes got a hot body well until she got fat
298. Gas prices in America: nah

~Name Game~
What Do You Think Of When You Hear These Common Names?.
299. Jack: the kid i babysit
300. Tiffany: amber theisen
301. Ben: afleck/ felicity
302. Maria: maria
303. Jennifer: lopez
304. Nicole: general hospital
305. Amy: b
306. Adam: song
307. Richard: jerked off and taped it
308. Justin: bennett
309. Arnold: hey!!
310. Tom: this kid in my communications class
311. Melissa: some girl from pompton lakes
312. Charlotte: church
313. Harold: arnolds tall haired friend
314. John: ferry
315. Joel: good charlotte
316. Vanessa: carlton
317. Michelle: branch
318. Kevin: chiz
319. Brent: some guy gay looking guy
320. Jake: daves brother
321. Billy: brown
322. Sarah: women
323. Natalie: portman
324. Christi: allen
325. Nick: fierro
326. Linda: wagner
327. Taylor: ham and cheese
328. Jordan: micheal
329. Jamie: bloomquist
330. Adrian: maroon 5 lol idk

~Have You Ever....~
331. Mooned anyone? yes
332. Been on a diet? yeah
333. Been to a foreign country? yup
334. Broken a bone? yup
335. Swallowed a tooth/cap/filling? yup
336. Swear at a teacher? kind of
337. Talked to a xanga member via e-mails or instant messages? no
338. Got in a fight? sorta
339. Dated a teacher? no
340. Laughed so hard you peed your pants? mabey wen i was little
341. Thought about killing your enemy? yes
342. Gone skinny dipping? yes
344. Told a little white lie? yes
345. Told a secret you swore not to tell? yes
346. Stolen anything? yes
347. Misused a swear word and it sounded absolutely stupid? yes
348. Been on TV? yeah i think so
349. Been on the radio? yeah
350. Been in a mosh pit? no
352. Dated one of your best friends? yes
353. Loved someone so much it makes you cry? yes
354. Decieved somebody close to you? yes
355. Broken the law? yes
356. Been to a rodeo? yeah
357. Been on a talk show? no
358. Been on a game show? no
359. Been on an airplane? yup
360. Got to ride on a firetruck? yup
361. Came close to dying? yes
362. Cheated on a bf/gf? sadly yes
363. Gave someone a piggy back ride? yes
364. Terrorized a babysitter? yes
365. Made a mud pie? yes
366. Had a dream that our falling off a cliff? yes
367. Snuck out of the house at night? once
368. Been so drunk you don't remember your name? yup
369. Had an eating disorder? no
370. Felt like you didn't belong? yes
371. Felt like the 3rd wheel? yes
372. Smoked? yes
373. Done drugs? yes
374. Been arrested? no
375. Had your tonsils removed? no
376. Gone to camp? yes
377. Won a bet? yes
378. Written a love letter? yes
379. Gone out of your way to be with the one you love? well to be with some one i liked yes
380. Written a love poem? yes
381. Kissed in the rain? yes =)
382. Slow danced with someone you love? yes
383. Participated in cyber sex? lol onee
384. Faked an orgasm? no
385. Stolen a kiss? umm mabey ?
386. Asked a friend for relationship advice? yes
387. Had a friend steal your bf/gf? no
388. Watched the sunset/rise with someone you love? yes
389. Gotten a speeding ticket? no
390. Done jail time? no
391. Had to wear a uniform to work? no, but i had to wear an aprin
392. Won a trophy? yea
393. Thrown up in public? yes
394. Bowled a perfect game? no
395. Failed/got held back? failed
396. Got perfect attendance in grade school? no
397. Roasted pumpkin seeds? no
398. Taken ballet lessons? no
399. Attempted suicide? no
400. Cut yourself? yeah

~Childhood Stuff~
401. Did you play with Barbies? kind of
402. Did you own Treasure Trolls?yeah
403. Did you watch Beverly Hills 90210? fukc yes i love that show
404. Did you play Simon? yes
405. Did you watch Fraggle Rock? no
406. Did you wet the bed? lol yes
407. Did you believe there were monsters in your closet or under your bed? yes
408. Did you wear the underwear with the days of the week on them? yes
409. Were you shy? yes
410. Were you spoiled? no
411. Were you abused? idk maby
412. Did you go to the circus? once
413. Did you go to the zoo? yes
414. Were you in a car accident? yes
415. Did you build snowmen? yes
416. Did you cry when you scraped your knee? yes
417. Were your older cousins mean to you? no
418. Did you think slinkies were cool? still do
419. Did you think the Ninja Turtles really lived in the sewer? i dont remember
420. Were you afraid of the dark?still am
421. Did you have slumber parties? yes
422. Did you have New Kids On The Block sheets, curtains, sleeping bags, dolls and pajamas? no
423. Did you tease your hair out like Tiffany? lol i had some crazy hair
424. Did you believe in the Easter Bunny/Santa Claus/ and the Tooth Fairy? yes

~Randomness~
425. Do you believe in aliens? yes
426. Name three things that are next to your computer: cd printer and hat
427. Do you have any hidden talents? no
428. Do you wish MTV would play music videos? yes
429. If you were to star in a movie, what kind of movie would it be? prolly action or a love movie
430. What would your movie star name be? janna famz
431. Do you play any sports? i used to play softball
432. What's the scariest movie you've ever seen? i hate the blair witch project its liek the only movie im scared of
433. What is the best movie you've seen in the theater or rented recently? scarface
434. What is the dumbest movie you've ever seen? scary movie 3
435. Do you drive? wen g-ma lets me
436. What is your dream car? Is 300 lexus or a 69 chevelle
437. Do you think your good looking? sometimes
438. Do others think you are good looking? idk mabey
439. Would you ever sky dive? i would absolutly love to
440. Do you believe in Bigfoot? nah
441. How many rooms do you have in your house? like 9
442. Are you afraid of roller coasters? no
443. Do you believe in God? no
444. Do you believe in Satan? no
445. Do you believe there is a heaven? idk
446. Do you believe there is a hell? idk
447. Do you own a pooltable? no
448. Do you have a pool? no
449. Do you have a dishwasher in your kitchen? yes
450. Do you like chocolate? only milk
451. Who/what is on your 2004 calendar? i dont have one i just use my fone
452. How many U.S. states have you been to? like 2
453. Ever wished on a shooting star? yes
454. Best Halloween costume you ever wore? once i was a strawberry
455. Do you carry any weapons on you? no
456. What is your weakness? giving in and confidnece
457. Name something you can't get enough of: sleep
458. Describe yourself in 3 adjectives: umm chill sincere clean
459. How many kids do you want to have? 3
460. Future daughters names: madison
461. Future sons names: dominic and travis
462. What is your ideal way to die? something really tragic so people remmeber it
463. How do you release stress? sleep
464. Are you a trendy person? idk
465. Are you an artisitic person? no
466. Are you a realistic person? "you try really hard to do but instead u just think of all the bad stuf fthat could happen"--rachel
467. Do you un-tie your shoes every time you take them off? no
468. Are you a strong person? sure
469. Are you a strong willed person? no not really
470. Who is the last person to e-mail you? idk
471. Who is the last person to IM you? eww brian
472. Do you hate chain e-mails? some
473. Are you a deep sleeper? sometimes
474. Are you a good story teller? sometimes
475. What do you believe is your best quality? "you tell people exactly what u think of them "--rachel
476. What is your greatest accomplishment? idk
477. Do you like to burn candles or incense? both
478. Do you do yoga? no but my g-ma does
479. Do you have your own credit card? no
480. Let's say you win the lotto:hot shit
481. Do you have a check book? no
482. Do you like your driver? umm i dont have one
483. Do you tan easily? yes
484. What color is your hair naturally? dark brown
485. How many fillings do you have? 3
486. How many cavities did you have at your last dentist visit? none
487. Worst feeling in the world? heart broken and alone ness
488. Best feeling in the world? love
489. Is the glass half empty or half full? empty
490. Last thing you downloaded? i dont download
491. Do you catch yourself using online terms in your real life? sometimes
492. What do you think people think of you? idk
493. Are you a likeable person? yeh i guess
494. Do you need therapy? g-ma thinks so
495. Do you take medication for a chemical imbalance? no
496. What the best way to be proposed to? cute
497. What kind of movie would you star in? action or love
498. If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge, would they call it Fed UP? idc
499. When are you moving? when i have enough money
500. What's your favorite phrase? yeah u like that

yeooooo maeen p.s. dont ask i was REALLY bored

2004-12-02T03:14:42Z

annie's tired of forgetting about today and always
planning for tomorrow annie says "the saddest day
i came across was when i learned that life goes on
with out me" annie says "if everyone has someone else
then i aint got nobody's love to save me annie says "i
think i'll pass away tonight, because it seems i'll never
get it right if its just me" and when you wake up everything
is going to be fine i guarentee that when you wake up in a
better place and in a better time so you're tired of living
and you feel like you might give in. well dont. its not your
time and even if it was i would'nt let you go you could run
run run run but i will follow close someday you will say "thats
is thats all" but i'll be there with open arms to break your
fall i know that you think that you're on your own but just
know that im here and i'll lead you home if you let me she
said "forget me" but i cant

the last two soldiers on the battlefield
survivors of the war they aim at one
another while their mothers beg the
lord "if your listening im missing him
so somehow bring him home how did
it come to this?" so the soldiers lift
their riffles they're aiming at the head
they think of their first love before they
take their final breaths and some where
in the distance they hear someone said
"how did it come to this?"

if there was something wrong would you still be oh so strong?

a moment of silence please for those who never
get the chance they show up to the party but
they're never asked to dance the losers the liars
the bastards the theives the cynicsits the pessimists
and those that dont believe in nothing

and the days and the days they seem like forever
and the days and the days they seem like forever

and if you go ill be gone
and you'll be left alone
to live your life as you
please but someday you'll
agree that i was always
meant for you were always
meant for me and you will
see that your impossible
your impossible

whats the point in denying when we all know were lying to our selves

sticks and stones may break my bones
but names will never hurt me and its
been years but still i fear that some
day they'll desert me oh its hard i kno
when its time to stand alone and no one
understands you

fuck fuck fuck

2004-11-30T02:07:35Z

holy fucking shit i hate this shittttt omgggggg i hate you i hate you i hate youuuuuuuuuuuuuu fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

ummyeah_cuz @ 2004-11-22T21:41:00

2004-11-23T02:54:33Z

SECTION 1 ABOUT YOURSELF
+ Known as: Janna
+ Lives in: Pompton Plains
+ Birthday: august 3
+ School: Pths
+ Religion: nothin really
+ Shoe size: 9
+ Hair color: brown
+ Eye color: brown
+ Style: i dont really have one i wear what i like
+ Fears: spiders that noise in the beginning of movies and windows at night

SECTION 2 HAVE YOU EVER...
+ Cheated on someone? yes
+ Been Cheated on? i dont think so
+ Fallen off the bed? yes
+ Broken someone’s heart? yes
+ Had your heart broken? yes
+ Had a dream come true? idk mabey
+ Done something you regret? yes
+ Cheated on a test? yes

SECTION 3 CURRENTLY...
+ Wearing? tan cammie and black chill shorts
+ Listening to? nothing
+ Located? pjs room
+ Chatting with? oz pete and mike
+ Watching? nada
+ Should REALLY be doing? gettin ready for sleep/watcvhin Empire Records

SECTION 4 DO YOU...
+ Brush your teeth? yeah
+ Like anybody? idk i keep like liking these two people on and off
+ Have any piercings? ears and belly button
+ Drive? wen g-ma lets me
+ Drink? not anymore
+ Smoke? smoke what?
+ Got a pager? nh u

SECTION 5 Friends...
+ Who is your best? sarah and rachel
+ Who do you hate? john lucienne this girl in my choir class
+ Who is the cutest? jack

+ Who laughs the most? sarah
+ Who have you known the longest? umm probly lindsay even though were not all that close ne more
+ Who have you known the shortest? oz and kait
+ Who do you miss the most? alissa
+ Personal problems? ummm
+ Do you hang out with the opposite sex? yes =)
+ Do you trust your friends? a certain few
+ Are you a good friend? i try
+ Can you keep a secret? yup

SECTION 6 THE LAST PERSON YOU...
+ Hugged? shaun
+ Kissed? sarah
+ IMed? mike st rizzi
+ Talked on the phone: rachel
+ Yelled at? rachel
+ Fell in love with? i ALMOST fell in love once

SECTION 7 PERSONAL...
+ What do you want to be when you grow up? actress but i doubt that so something with helping people
+ What has been the best day of your life? probly one day over the summer
+ What comes first in your life? fun
+ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? crush kind of
+ What are you most scared of? being alone/forgotten about
+ What do you usually think about before you go to bed? idk random shit
+ Love your family? yes
+ Love your friends?the most

SECTION 8 FAVORITE...
+ Movie: jay and silent bob strike back the girl next door and empire records
+ Store: umm the mall
+ Relative: aunt liz
+ Sport: softball
+ Ice Cream Flavor: dutch chocolate and cake mix
+ Fruit: pine apple
+ Candy: ring pop, air heads skittles and sprees
+ Holiday: christmas and my b-day
+ Day of the Week: saturday
+ Time: night
+ Color: blue
+ Name for a Girl: maddison and jocylyn
+ Name for a Boy: dominic

SECTION 9 DO YOU...
+ Like to give hugs? yup
+ Like to give kisses? yup
+ Like to walk in the rain? yup
+ Prefer black or blue pens? black
+ Like to travel? yup
+ Sleep on your side, tummy or back? all of them
+ Have a goldfish? nah
+ Ever have the falling dream? yep
+ Have stuffed animals? yeah

SECTION 10 WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
+ Abortion: choice
+ Smoking: for
+ Eating Disorders: against
+ Suicide: no
+ Summer:for
+ Tattoos: for
+ Piercings: for

SECTION 11 THIS OR THAT...
+ Pierced nose or tongue? tougne
+ Single or taken? both
+ MTV or BET? mtv
+ 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek? dawsons creek
+ Sugar or salt? sugar
+ Silver or gold? silver
+ Chocolate or flowers? flowers
+ Color or Black-and-white photos? both
+ M&M's or Skittles? skittles
+ Stay up late or sleep in? umm well i like to stay up late and then sleep in
+ Hot or cold? comfortable

+ Sun or moon? both
+ Left or Right? idc
+ 10 Acquaintances or one best friend? best friend
+ Mustard or ketchup? i like both
+ Spring or Fall? spring
+ Happy or sad? happy
+ Wonder or amazement? both
+ McDonald's or Burger King? bk
+ Mexican or Italian food? italian
+ Lights on or off? on i hatre the dark
+ Candy or soda? both
+ Pepsi or Coke? coke

so incredible the way things work them selves out....

2004-11-21T04:58:25Z

hello im like super bored even though i just got home like 10 minutes ago its ok i hate home its soo boringg soo hmm what did i do this weekend?
friday i went to anns house to have a one acts meeting but it actually ended up not happening so i chilled with her and her brother until like 430 then i went home and then at like 6ish g-ma drove me to my cousins house cuz i was in a really horrible mood and g-ma "couldnt handle me and didnt know what to do with me" but its all good cuz i love my aunt and uncle they make me sooo happy so i went there and then i flipped out in there kitchen to my aunt uncle sam amy and zach but its all good they were all understanding...so they all went to the football game but i didnt want to be with people so i stayed home it was just sooo nice to get away from everyone and be alone cuz if uve ever been to my house its impossible to relax there cuz my g-ma is always yelling about somethingg so i chilled there watched some tv chatted on the fone with bob for a while witch is always fun then everyone came home at like 10ish and me sam amy and casey went to amys to chill that was fun =) but then again it always is so we slept there omg it was the most uncomfortable nights sleep ever me and sam shared amys brothers bed witch is a single and we shared a little like square couch pillow and no blanktet and there were no sheets on the bed it was crazy so then the next day we chilled at amys till like 2ish and then we went back to my aunts and then i went home got ready and shit and went to go get blt's from quiznos with sara hand dave we went to sarahs and ate and played mario kart it was intense then oz came over and me her and sarah chilllllled and then we chilled with mark and jay aww =) i missed them and then we met up with shaun and rachel i havent seen shaun or talked to him in like forever actually like 2 weeks but it feels like forever so i was very happy to see him so we did like absolutly nothin except go to stop and shop get food and then chill in a parking lot until we decided to go to shauns for pizza and then we migrated to quick chek parking lot and waited for shaun to show up with dan and his cuzin josh then we chilled there for a lil bit and then i went home cuz we had nothin to dooo

o yeah i heard about some really gay shit that went sown last night pleaseeeeee wowwowwooww o yeah thats cool and me and sarah let me tell you are just horrible influences yeah ok just a tip if u want to talk shit about people try not to say it to there best friend and expect them not to find out but umm some people have to learn to chilll the fuck out and let other people live there lives and accept them for who they are
aight this entry is fuckin mad long sooo peaceeeee

hiiii

2004-11-11T01:04:45Z

hmm so i havent updated in a while and i decided im really bored and im not alloud out becasue im "recovering" i decided im updating this shit.....umm soo i stayed home from school yesterday cuz i had this really random throwing up problem and let me tell u in was not fun at all and then i stayed home today too just to recover or wut ever unfortunitly ill be returniing to school tomorrow...so rachel called me after school to inform me of something that happened to jesse...wow thats fuckin crazy its soo hard to beleive ever though we bumped heads a while ago and didnt really get along for a while we kinda put it in the past over the last couple of years soo i really hope he pulls through..get better jesse<3
yeah soo hmm o yeah and another thing that im kinda pissed off about is sarah and rachel are both working at TJMaxx witch means i have absolutly nothing to do ever and since there like the only two people i ever hang out with it sux but hmm mabey ill make new friends =/ hmm or mabey not soo i just sat around today but i watched this really weird/good/confusing movie called Kill Me Later it was really intereeting even though i didnt really get what was going on becasue it was super confusign but in the end i think i figured out most of it but there was this really rerally hot guy in it names Charlie with a really hott english accent and english accents all themselves are just fuckin hott as hell mmmmmmmmm o yes and speaking of hott pete stopped over real quick and he got his hair cut he looks really hotttt he got his # shaved into his head its cute anywayy hmmmm i want cake mix ice cream really badly i hope rachel brings me some home =) that would be particularly awsome but im gunna go now cuz my clothes are done so i have to go take care of them peaceeeeeeeeeeeee slut

beCuz afTer wE kiSsed i OnlY thOughT 'bOut `yOur` LipS

2004-10-13T00:30:50Z

//name: Janna Marie Famiano
//age: 16
//birthday: august 3rd
//location: pompton plains
//sex: girl
//school: pths
//siblings: pj
//siblings age[s]: 18
//parents: ummm welll flo(mom) then theres g-ma and then uncle john and aunt liz
//are your parents together?: no sir

[Currently: chatting with antony richard cronk and listening to just loose it by eminem and eating sherbert
//currently reading: ummm "why im like this"
//currently listening to: just loose it-eminem
//currently writing: i should be writing my english projects
//currently watching: nothing
//currently wishing: i cant tell you or it wont come true duhhh
//currently wanting: a really hotttt guy with a nice car and a dog
//currently crushing on: no one really guys have been particularly boring latly
//currently in [what room are you in]: peej's room
//currently wearing: ummm a boys and girls club staff shirt and cute little boxer things from Delias

[What's to your...]
//whats to your right?: ummm the computer screen a water bottle the mouse tissues my cell fone and the printer and if u wantto get really technical the wall/door
//whats to your left?: the other peice to my computer and my brothers dresser con mucho shit on it
//whats in front of you?: speakers wall and my sherbert
//whats behind you?: pjs bed with clothes on it and wall

[Favorites]
//favorite book[s]: hmm i know i have one of these ummm shitttt fuck ....ummm
//favorite song[s]: im not allowed to listen to music its against my relign
//favorite artist[s]: sublime mad caddies
//favorite writer[s]: umm i like nicholas sparks
//favorite food[s]: cereal quiznos
//favorite color[s]: blues
//favorite subject in school: sociology
//favorite room in your house: my room
//favorite place to be: anywhere with my friends especially sarahs room though o yeah and my aunt liz's hosue and aunt lelas
//favorite movie[s]: jay and silent bob strike back and the girl next door and my big fat greek wedding
//favorite tv show[s]: ummm i love the ...(fill in with year) and laguana beach
//favorite store[s]: delias pac sun
/favorite clothing brands[s]: idk

[Love Life]
//boyfriend/girlfriend?: nah u
//if so, how long?: -
//if not, do you want one?: yeah i guess
//who do you like?: not really anyone
//have you ever told anyone [other than family members] you loved them?: yes
//did you mean it?: yeas
//how many guys have you kissed?: haha umm like 15 im a "hook up slut" right
//how many girls have you kissed?: 2
//how many guys have you dated?: well like 5 but only one was a real boyfriend
//how many girls have you dated?: none
//what do you look for in a boyfriend or girlfriend? [physically]: big hands haha nice teeth tall and skinny nice eyes and lips
//what do you look for in a boyfriend or girlfriend? [personality]: always making me lauugh ummm comfortableness nice to me idk
//longest relationship?: umm like a month and some more i dont really know
//shortest relationship?: like an hour

[Have You Ever...]
//had sex?: nah
//given oral sex?: no ma'am
//recieved oral sex?: nahh
//drank alcohol?: yeah homes
//smoked?: yeah

[Do You...]
//drink alcohol?: yep
//smoke?: with sarah
//watch porn?: haha with my friends
//do drugs?: nah not really
//self-harm?: nah im straight

[Your Bed]
//size: doublee
//sheets: fubu haha
//how many pillows: 3
//stuffed animals: a few

[Odds n Ends]
//obsessions: hands ceasar salads umm srah and rachel
//bad habits: bite my skin around my fingers bad temper ummm i jump to alot of conclusions about EVERYTHING all the time and there usually bad o yeah and over exagerating the truth and not thinking before i talk
//weird fact about yourself: i have seven toes umm hmmm but really im scared of the dark and i love colyfluour
//what kind of music are you into: rockish skaish
//best concert: ummm well considering the only real concerts ive been to were nsync and good charlotte umm foh hahaha

[This or That]
//summer or winter: summer
//spring or fall: spring
//summer or fall: summer
//winter or spring. spring
//clean or dirty: dirty
//night or day: night
//rain or shine: rain
//grass or pavement: grass
//radio or cds: cds
//vhs or dvd: dont matter
//board games or computer games: both
//light or dark: dark
//football or hockey: football
//hockey or lacrosse: hockey

[What do you think when you hear...]
//metallica: lars
//britney spears: i heard shes getting fat
//christina aguilera: wen she looked really pretty in her come on over video
//kiss: big tounges
//queen: the school choir
//good charlotte: bad mascara
//simple plan: sarah hates them
//thursday: alissa listens to them
//bright eyes: jacks eyes

[For/Against]
//same sex marriages: For
//gun control: idk what that means
//legalization of pot: for
//birth control: for
//abortion: against for the most part
//war: against
//bush: gay
//kerry: gay
//authorities cracking down on illegal music downloaders: against

[Make-up]
//foundation?: yea
//powder?: nahh
//eyeliner?: sometimes
//mascara?: yeahh
//eyeshadow?: yeah
//lipstick or lipgloss?: nope
[Primping]
//shaving or waxing?: shaving
//tweezing or waxing?: both
//barber or salon?: salon
//straigtening or curling?: umm my hair is just straight all the time...no matter what

NY Chic 800: i loveeee you

2004-09-29T00:58:14Z

- - T h e B a s I c s - -
-WHAT IS YOUR REAL NAME?: Janna Marie Famiano
-NICKNAMES?: Women janna famz yanni DD
-AGE?: 16
-BIRTHDAY: 8-3-88
-ZODIAC SIGN: leo
-WHERE DO YOU LIVE?: pompton plains
-WHAT SCHOOL DO YOU ATTEND: pths
- - L o o k s - -
-DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? nope
-HAIR?: brown
-EYES: brown some one told me i had doe eyes like a dear once

-SEX OR ICE-CREAM?: sex with ice cream

- - R I g h t N o w - -
-WHAT COLOUR UNDERWEAR ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?: like rainbow
-WHAT ARE YOU DOING RIGHT NOW?: listening to avril lavigne
-HOWS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? rainy--i love it =)
-WHAT R U WEARING RIGHT NOW? gray camy and black chill shorts
-WHAT IS RIGHT NEXT TO YOU?: ummm the computer moniter on the left and the printer on the right

-IF U WERE A TOY, WHAT WOULD YOU BE?: umm idk thats a hard one
- - F u t u r e - -
-WHERE WOULD YOU WANT TO GO ON YOUR HONEYMOON?: hawaii or australia
-WHO WOULD YOU WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH? sarah and rachel and steven can come too
-WHAT ARE YOUR FUTURE PLANS?: going to college with sarah and being very proud of racehel and living together with sarah and out hott boy friends

- - L a s t s - -
-WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU DID? talked to dave cardinel
-WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU ATE OUT WITH: umm sarah
-LAST PERSON YOU SPOKE TO ON THE PHONE? g-ma
-LAST PERSON WHO TEXTED YOU: rachel
-LAST PERSON YOU TEXT: racehl
-LAST FILM YOU SAW AT CINEMA?: spidey man 2

- - B e s t - -
-WHO DO CONSIDER YOUR CLOSEST/BESTEST FRIENDS?: sarah marie harrie and racehl ann young
-WHAT WAS THE BEST ADVICE EVER GIVEN TO YOU?: boy advice and trusting advice from sarah and racehl

- - W o r s t - -
WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD: feeling alone and the feeling u get wen u trust some one and care bout them and they fuck you over
WORST SOUND?: bad songs made into ringtones <-- im gunna go with sigz on this one

- - F a v e s - -
-FAVE FOOD: cereal/bagels/quick chek wrap
-FAVE FILM: the girl next door empire records jay and silent bob
-FAVE DAY OF THE YEAR?: day after school ends
-WHATS YOUR FAVE NUMBER? 3
-WHERE IS YOUR FAVOURITE PLACE TO SHOP: mall idk
-COLOUR: the boues
-CD or TAPE?: umm mad caddies and mixes sarah and chelsea make me
-ANIMALS?: dog and gorrillas

- - C o l o r s - -
-WHAT COLOUR ARE YOUR PAJAMAS?: umm well i usually whear a camy and confy shorts
-WHAT COLOUR'S YOUR TOOTHBRUSH?: white and green

- - O r - -
-DO YOU LIKE SCARY OR HAPPY MOVIES?: scary
-CHRISTMAS OR EASTER?: christmas
-LUST OR LOVE?: love but lust is gefinitly more exciting
-KISSES OR HUGS?: kisses
-CHOCOLATE, WHITE OR MILK? milk
-ROOT BEER OR DR PEPPER: dr pepper
-MUD OR JELLY WRESTLING? jelly
-SKIING OR BOARDING?: boarding
-DAY OR NIGHT? night
-SUMMER OR WINTER? summer
-CAKE OR PIE? i cream cake
-SILVER OR GOLD?? silver
-DIAMONDS OR PEARLS? diamonds
-SUNRISE OR SUNSET? sunset

- - R a n d o m - -
-HOW MANY BUDDIES DO YOU HAVE ON YOUR LIST?: 186
-WHATS YOUR RING TONE? ummm sarahs is everblazing racehls is csikos post g-mas is nocturne people from pompton lakes is bandaria and wayne is rag time and everyone else is mission impossible
HOW MANY TIMES DO YOU LET THE PHONE RING BEFORE YOU ANSWER IT?: depends
-WHAT DO YOU THINK A TOBLERONE IS: no
-DO U OWN A VEHICLE?: not yet
-HAVE YOU EVER WON A SPECIAL AWARD?: yeah like wen i was in 4th gradei got "best personality" and i got an award for getin all a's in home economics
-DO YOU LIKE TO DANCE?: depends who im with
-ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK ANYONE OUT: i would never too scared of rejection i never make the first move
-DO YOU SLEEP NAKED?: in the summer wen its hott
WHAT IS THE MOST STUPID THING YOU HAVE EVER DONE?: lol wooo sarah and rachel know this one
-WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THIS SURVEY??: im enjoying it
WHATS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP? ugh g- ma shut the fuck up
-ROLLER COASTER, SCARY OR EXCITING? exciting
-MEET ONE PERSON, DEAD OR ALIVE, WHO WOULD IT BE? umm idk thats hard
-IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB IN THE WORLD WHAT WOULD IT BE? actrress
-IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL? Half empty
-HAVE YOU EVER BROKEN A BONE?: wrist thanx to eric kosmack after he pushed me out of a truck
-DO YOU HATE ANYONE?: like 2 people but i dont usually hate people
-DO YOU BELIEVE IN FIGHTING? yea
-WHAT DO YOU DREAM ABOUT? i have some really intense dreams about guys alot haha
-DO YOU HAVE A HUGE CRUSH ON SOMEONE RIGHT NOW!: nahh
-WHO DO YOU TURN TO FOR ADVICE: rachel and sarh
-WHO'S THE FIRST TO ASK IN SCHOOL/WORK IF YOU'RE ALRIGHT: sarah and rae cuz there gay and can tell wen im in a bad mood wen no one else can its really amaxing
-YOU COULD HAVE 1 SKILL IN LIFE WHAT WOULD IT BE?: id want to be able to hear stuff and know how to play them and how to play a buncha instruments and shit cuz its soo cool wen people can do that

- - F o r G I r l s A b o u t G u y s - -
-BOXERS OR Y FRONTS: boxer briefs or boxers w/e
-DARK OR FAIR? middle
-TALL OR SMALL: tall
-SIX PACK OR NICE ARSE:i like my guys tall and skinny but iwth muscle
-DOES SIZE MATTER: yeah
-MOST IMPORTANT PHYSICAL FEATURE: umm hands haha then lips then eyes o yeah they have to have nice teeth

- -T h e E x t r a S t u f f - -
WHAT ARE YOU SCARED OF?: alonness spiders
WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?: a hilary duff song
DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED: eventually

- - H a v e Y o u E v e r- -
GIVEN SOMEONE A BATH: yea
BROKEN THE LAW??: yes
GONE SKINNY DIPPING? yea

- - F I r s t T h I n g T h a t C o m e s T o M I n d - -
GRASS: green
ZEBRA: zoo
SOCKS: big
DUMB: estupido
HOUSE: white
BOB: haha trucks hahahaah and then i laugh really hard nah hes a cool kid
FISH: eww
SPACE: jay fiendkind
HUG: like putting ur face in a guys chest and being all warm and shit and they smell really good
Kiss: ass

dave cardinal is a funny mother fuckerrrrrrr

SPECialdavE14: every night hes like "im gonna
get laid tonight" then everyday after hes like
"nah she was busy"

updatingggggggg

2004-09-23T23:29:26Z

ive been in a great fantastic mood since like monday or something and i love it ever since me and sarah me up at her locker that one morning and we just got in like incredible mood and its not goin away haha woo its awsome

yeahhhhhh hmmm wow i LOVE my friends they are awsome and i would be absolutly lost with out them but i especially love these ones

sarah
rachel
charles
kaitlyn
chelsea
mallorie

chelsea dilkessssssss---thank you sooo much for my cd its the shit im listening to it right now i loveee you and that picture of the beautiful "hand man" fuck wut everyone else thinks hes fuckin hottttttt haha i love youuuuu o yeah and "how bizzar?"

p.s. rachel feeeeel betttter dont be sickkkkk were gunna be gettin CrAZy tomorrow night so you best not be sick for that shit haha wouldnt u like to know how i know ur sick b4 you told me hahahahaaaa

sarah marie harris-----o jeeez this is gunna be a toughy ummm but hey how ya doin ummm i love you and all that mushy gushy best friend shit but i really do mean but yo u are the "it" in "shit" haha that was original we gotta start chillin more cuz we NEVER do we have some crazy ass times together but its all good cuz its all in "good fun" well nost of it me u and rachel are crazy hates on ex-bfs new girls woo were crazy its kinda sad how were always together but not really but its kinda sad how we have no other friends except eachother but not really cuz id rather be friends with you...hmmm we gotta watch the girl next door and next time we do we gotta include rachel and we have to make her watch the kissing scene cuz its only the hottest kiss everrr "yo fuck him for me" aight coool ummm i really dont no wut to say and now im jut rambling but ummmmm i love you and u are the best and ur always putting a smile on my face and i love you for it i really do soo yeahhh i think that about raps it up .....yeah it does peace nig and all that shit i just said to sarah goes for rachel too cuz i love her just as muchus three complete eachother haha except stevie completes sarah too so i dont think that mathmatically works but its all good who needs a guy wen u have friends like sarah and rachel besides the sexual part no oneee

ok im doneeeeeeee peace homesss

peace to summer

2004-09-08T02:52:57Z

soo this summer was fun lost alot of friends but its all good cuz i got a lot of new ones too yeahh i think i learned alot and matured a lot too even though it had its bad points it was all good the begining more than the end but hey sarah and rae u guys are my girls for life were fuckin crazy and we might do some stupid shit at least we have fun yehhhh aight im done and ewwwww we have school tomorrow so this sux peaceeeeeeee

that was my big bad summer entry wooo

yoo homes

2004-09-05T04:40:29Z

DESCRIBE YOUR:
[ x ] Wallet - umm black with a pink J but the J is colored blue by pen
[ x ] Hairbrush - ummm big square thing like wooden i guess
[ x ] Toothbrush - white with green grippy things
[ x ] Pillow cover - white with purpe FUBU's all over it
[ x ] Blanket - purple/dark blue
[ x ] Coffee cup - has an @ on it
[ x ] Sunglasses - none
[ x ] Underwear - cute thongs mostly from g and g
[ x ] Shoes - ummm "dying blue sandals, and thats all i wear so it dosnt matter"--rachel
[ x ] Favorite top - the white
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume - sparkkkkkk aka pauls smell
[ x ] CD in stereo right now f- ummm "jannas other mix"
[ x ] Tattoos - none yet
[ x ] Piercings - ears and belly button
[ x ] Hair - up "brown with really cool layers in the front"--rachel
[ x ] In my head - well right now im thinking about rachel cuz im talking to her
[ x ] After this - talk to racehl and then go to sleep and watch now and then
[ x ] Talking to - rachel
[ x ] Eating - nothing i just ate resus puffs though
[ x ] If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason - hmmmm john,lucienne,beth(rachel)
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - i cant tell you that one...
[ x ] Is next to you - the printer
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month - school! nahhhh umm picnicing with sarh and racehl and playing frisbee
[ x ] The last thing you ate - resus puffs
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of - being forgotten about and spiders
[ x ] Do you like candles - yeah
[ x ] Do you like incense - yeah
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - no but rachel does shes a vampire!
[ x ] Do you believe in love - yes
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - yes but not necesarally in like a boy girl way {ie.} sarah could be rachels soul mate like best friends
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - yes
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - idk well have to wait and see
[ x ] Do you believe in forgiveness - sometimes
[ x ] Do you believe in God - idk
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - cremated and donate my organs and then have my ashes spread over a really special place
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy - idk
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - dog
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - like 2 days
[ x ] Ever been to Belgium - nope
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - yeah kind of
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - quarter
[ x ] What are 5 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to - nyc, lbi, wildwood, umm and idk
[ x ] What are some of your favorite pig out foods - cereal
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand - me
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better - why certain things happen
[ x ] Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time - yes
[ x ] What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow - have a sarah and janna day and then chill with rachel at night =)

another drink and we'll all be fine...a little music and we start to shine

2004-08-19T17:56:14Z

yeahh man im fuckin bored hmmmm i have work at 3 witch is in 1 hour and 7 minutes but i think i have to walk so i have to leave like 240ish so thats in like 47 minutes so i should probly go shower but i want to go eat so i think im gunna eat and then showerrr hmmmmmmm yea i think im gunna go and eat or watch 13 goin on 30 one of the two ugh i hate work i dont want to go but w/e i have all of next week off woooot yeahhh so peace nucccccccccaaaaaaaaaa

<33 Janna

and i just want sleep. but this night is hell

2004-08-19T03:51:28Z

soooo tonight was fun fun fun

"i've got to get better," I said, "It's all in your head."
We could live through these letters or forget it all together
See the months they don't matter it's the days I can't take
When the hours move to minutes and I'm seconds away

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing about

When all that we need is just a reaction
It's too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore
If chasing our dreams is just a distraction
I want to remember but I know that I can't go back

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Try to avoid it (try to avoid it) but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.

goin to enjoy my popcorn and watch 13 goin on 30 =) peaceee niggggga

sarah and ann are the shiot

2004-08-17T06:12:30Z

dear live journal,

hi how are you? im doin quite dandy. right now im sitting in between anns legs listening to Hanson its quite exotic hmmmm hanson is a cool band yeahh i made a new screen name its -janna is gay- so add that shit to ue buddy list ann just licked my ear and sarah is sitting on the couch eating reasus puffs encouriging here to lick my ear cuz it "feels really nice" hmmmm ann wants me to give her a hickey or a rasberry as they say back in the home land poland im up for it sarah and me are having anus sex and she is recieving.. sarah and ann just taught me how to be perfect at sucking and nibbling on their ears.. well practice for the sexy dudes i shalt soon be hithering with.. mmm im gonna make the next walking thing with a penis.. go crazy with my new skills.. hell yeah bitch peaccee i have to go eat some pus and make it juice

yeahh

2004-08-12T04:17:13Z

umm i havent updated in a long time soo im doin that

i fuckin hate this shit

live journals suck

i think all people who post in this shit all the time suck

even though im friends with half the people

but yeah im done

but everyone should see jay and silent bob

cuz the movie is fuckin awsome

and o yeah hang out with sarah harris shes one cool mother fucker

fuck beans im out